She’s can be quiet unless you speak with her. Mysterious and uncertainty at times, unless you open your heart. You’ll be blessed with peace if you meet with her when your confused and unsure. Dressed in wisdom with a wardrobe of knowledge,  go in the way of understanding. Learn to hold and caress her…Don’t be foolish and full of assumptions. .Get understanding!

A new day!  Even the birds are singing a new song!  We can’t relive or change the words we’ve said, the smiles we brought or the pain we’ve caused. But the sun invites a brighter path that has a loyal sky painted in a blue that was not like yesterday. As time passes, we have yet another chance to choose a different way..one that may lead us to a better us and away from that merciless spirit we’ve had in the past. Let today be a different and a more forgiving day.

Blessings,

~LAM

WHERE I USE TO THINK IT WAS A CURSE TO LOVE SO HARD, AND FORGET SO EASILY,
I NOW REALIZE THAT IT WAS A BLESSING IN DISGUISE. I’M THANKFUL FOR A HEART THAT IS PURE AND I GIVE,(AND FOR AS LONG AS I COULD REMEMBER) FORGAVE THOSE WHOM MAY NOT DESERVE IT BUT IT HAS TAUGHT ME THAT IT IS NOT WRONG IN SEEING THE GOOD IN THEM. EVEN WHEN THEY CAN’T SEE IT IN THEMSELVES. ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR SOMETHING OTHER THEN THE MATERIAL THINGS THAT LIE ON YOUR BACK, OR THE VEHICLES IN YOUR DRIVEWAY? ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR THE PAIN AND DISAPPOINTMENT THAT HAS LEAD YOU TO BECOME A STRONGER PERSON? A MORE APPRECIATIVE PERSON? TRIALS, HURT AND TRIBULATIONS ISN’T THE JOURNEY TO A NO END SOLUTION. IT SHOULD EVENTUALLY LEAD YOU TO A PATH OF ENLIGHTENMENT. ONE THAT YOU SHOULD SEE AS A LESSON THAT THE HEART CAN’T BREAK BUT PUMPS HARDER TO FIND WHAT REALLY BRINGS YOU JOY. TO THE WOMAN WHOM THOUGHT SHE FOUND LOVE, AND WENT OUT OF HER WAY TO PROVE SHE IS ENOUGH AND LOVED HIM….DISAPPOINTMENT SHOULD NOT BREAK AND STOP YOU! BE THANKFUL THAT YOU HAD LOVE TO GIVE, THE ENERGY TO GIVE…YOU MADE A WAY OUT OF NO WAY…AND YET THERE YOU ARE STILL STANDING. SO MANY OF US LOOK AT WHAT OTHERS TOOK US THROUGH INSTEAD OF LOOKING AROUND AND AHEAD AND SAYING LOOK WHERE I AM NOW. STILL STANDING! BE THANKFUL FOR THE MULTITUDE OF LOVE FROM THOSE THAT TRULY APPRECIATE AND CARE ABOUT YOUR HEART. TO THAT MAN, WHO HAS BEEN STRUGGLING TO BE AND DO RIGHT BY HER, YET YOU CAN’T PLEASE HER…LOOK AT ALL THE LOVE YOU CAN GIVE UNCONDITIONALLY. BE THANKFUL THAT YOU HAVE THE CHARACTER TO NOT LET IT CHANGE YOU BECAUSE YOUR SOUL MATE COULD BE THE ONE THAT YOU OVERLOOKED.THE ONE THAT FEEDS YOUR SOUL, AND HAVE FAITH IN YOU..AND YOU HAVE SO MUCH LOVE TO GIVE. SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR.

THANKSGIVING SHOULDN’T BE JUST ONE DAY. WE SHOULD REFLECT EVERYDAY AND BE HONORED TO HAVE OUR CHARACTER,OUR LOVE,JOY AND PAIN TO ENDURE AND SHARE WITH THOSE THAT REALLY ARE IN OUR CORNER. WHEN WE DO THIS, KNOW OUR WORTH, WE WILL BE THANKFUL FOR MORE THEN WHAT THE EYE CAN SEE. WE WILL SEE WHAT IT IS TO BE PURE IN HEART, SOUL AND MIND.

I see and hear you and yes with great prayers my friends I asked God to put in my heart what can I tell her/him that can give a little hope. Let’s just say we all have our moments and I can relate to almost everyone of the issues that we have spoken about. No this is not just for you, trust me when I say, you aren’t the only person going through this but I just want you to know I am still praying for all of our breakthroughs or EUREKA moments to come in. Much Love from me to you…

Just when you thought, “I can’t take anymore, this is the last straw!” There is a breaking point indeed but you can’t give up. There is so much more life ahead and your purpose in life wasn’t to be born, fail and then die! It’s so much love out there for you that the hurt you feel now is temporary. Yes, I know at this point you can’t remember the last time you were happy, but that’s how the enemy wants your mind to be. Just remembering all the times that you failed, all the times you were used, abused and discarded when you served your purpose for people you so deeply cared for and loved. JUST DON’T DIE! I had been reading and listening to Joyce Meyers, T.D. JAKES along with praying and reading my Bible faithfully when it dawned on me that sometimes we have to LET GO, ACCEPT SOME OF THE BLAME, AND PREPARE. My dear friends, let go of the hurt.So we’ve made the mistakes, been hurt and may have incurred some scaring from the people we hold most dear. Let that go and stop rehearsing and reciting to others on what happened, how it made you feel and even how you plan to react! YOU are keeping this pain in your mind, your heart and your soul…how can you expect to heal when you keep picking at the scar? Accept your part of the blame! I don’t care if you say that “you were used, they treated you a certain way, and all you tried to do was be there for them to prove your love.” If it wasn’t received by them how you wanted and you didn’t get the response or the returned love, WHY ARE YOU CRYING EVERY NIGHT? WHY ARE YOU POINTING THE FINGERS JUST AT THEM? There was a point in that friendship,relationship,and even if it was at a position at the job you didn’t receive that you knew it may not happen the way you want it to go. Accept that maybe you are placing your hopes and dreams in something that wasn’t at this time for you, accept the outcome! Don’t go and call your friends and complain on how much you put into this, what you did to make it better and how you won’t love again or try to reach that position you really deserve. Your destination may have not been with them or at that position! WE GET SO UPSET ON OUR FAILED PLANS THAT WE NEVER THOUGHT MAYBE IT WASN’T GOD’S PLAN FOR US. PREPARE!!!! Oh you have been going through pure hell fighting yourself, your emotions, and trying so hard to keep faith when every road you’ve taken is blocked. When you’re at your most weakest point, when you least expect it, that’s when you’ll be released and you’ll see and feel the fruits of your labor give birth to more than what you’ve ever hoped for. That’s when your struggles will be forgotten and you’ll wonder what it was that kept you from this wondrous place in your life. JUST DON’T DIE. DON’T GIVE UP. KEEP YOUR HEAD UP LOOKING FORWARD AND DON’T LOOK BACK AT WHAT COULD,SHOULD OR WOULD HAVE BEEN! It didn’t happen, and YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY THAT YOU REALLY COULDN’T MAKE IT HAPPEN..YOU’LL BE BLESSED WITH THAT SOMEONE THAT IS A BLESSING TO YOU AND YOU FOR THEM. THAT POSITION YOU WANTED, YOU’LL BE OVER…JUST HOLD ON AND DON’T DIE..

Loving unconditionally…and those who are on the receiving end will think you will always be there.Maybe so. However, trust me, as that loving person if it’s not always reciprocated you tend to feel alone. By all means this doesn’t mean stop loving hard…just love harder towards someone or something that gives back. As I read and hear the situations that we all let take what should be our greatest moments in life away, I notice the wasted times we allowed to past while we think of what we can do to make others love us as we love them! There’s no perfect timing, no perfect place then right here and right now! You’ve waited! I’ve waited…for what? Happiness, joy and that complete feeling? Well when it’s not guaranteed to come today or any other day… SO what am I saying? Don’t wait for her or him to text or call you to tell you that you’re on their mind, they appreciate you and that you’re special…Look in the mirror and tell yourself you’re worth more than an every other day text, call or a once in a while hug…You can give so much to someone that needs to hear a good word, or see your smile..that extra mile you’ve ran for so long to prove your worth to that one person..could and should have been to someone that just needed five minutes of your time. WE shouldn’t take THESE short days for granted and sure as hell shouldn’t be the ones taken for granted either…LIVE life with as many LAUGHING moments possible with those who really want your LOVE!

Much love from me to all of you…

 

My throat hurts and I am feeling nauseated. My phone won’t stop ringing from the ignorance of people that think that life revolves around them.

So many hide behind social media and titles, yet if you were quiet enough you can hear their real voice. If you open your eyes a little, you can see the fear that consumes them.

When someone tries to understand your pain, why do you take their kindness and test their long suffering?

I don’t care to know how long you’ve had your problem, I am only here to be of service to you, not a doormat.

It irritates me that we don’t understand what it means to give or do for another person unless it means that we are receiving something in return!

My throat hurts so badly from swallowing many words that are not Politically correct, yet it would free me from some thoughts of how many people earnestly think it is okay to put on a Facade…

So we all go through these moments when we need to have time to ourselves,

And then it’s those moments when we are supposed to bare one another’s burdens,

This does not release you from standing on your own..

Stop draining people around you,

It’s okay to be a shoulder, but when someone has to be your shoulder, arm, leg and your spine it gets to be a little much…

Learn to grow closer to God, and have faith in someone else besides man.

No not man as in only a male, but woman, your children, your dog…whoever you depend on and have faith in besides you and GOD…

Because if you are waiting to be treated the way you treat others you will be one pitiful confused, hurt and disappointed soul!

Been there done that, and I own the shirt complaining about it.

Tonight I am not being Politically correct for anyone…

Because it seems as though tough love is what you need. And since you only get milk and pats on the back like you are a victim from other people…tonight you get a little bread that will coat your stomach.

To the “patters of the backs” of these victims, you are merely a hindrance. You’re slowing down a young lady from being a woman, and keeping a boy from being a man..

The advice you should be giving is to tell them to “shut up and stop complaining, become a solution and stop REHEARSING  their problem day after day!

I know you think I am talking to you. I AM. No not you, but if you fit in any of this than come on…

Realize every moment you spend complaining and being anything less than happy …you’re wasting your little life on this Earth…and our time is not plentiful or promised.

Imagine that…my sore throat is now gone…the nausea has subsided …

 

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Just one touch…

Can change your mind,

At first sight the path blind,

That gifts visible signs

One we can slightly touch or breathe,

So many plead and like an addict the need

That one touch…

Incapacitated, so long to have waited

A connection of Laughter, their love sequestered

Yet every day the memoirs gated with hatred

Freedom never to be tested or hearts embedded

Oh how much is needed

That one touch…

She rather not risk the “no” that can touch her ears
But dreaming every night about the “yes” that can caress her heart with sweet drips of nectar
He rather hold open the door from yesterday’s unsettling news,
Letting the wind blow in doubt or shade of what he witnessed when he held her in his arms.
And she close the blinds to tomorrow’s maybe…
Redundant nights of trying to read or see the stars
Settling for mere sparks, she had been the only one to reach his heart…

A Geminis’ … stubborn love

If someone asked me what I thought I would be doing at this moment in time about 20 years ago…

I guarantee, I would have had some glimmer and golden plans that included a lifestyle and people in it that I just couldn’t imagine living without…BUT that was 20 YEARS AGO! How can someone wake up daily with an outlook that it is a much brighter day than it was yesterday? Don’t misunderstand me, I do have some moments that I allow people to chisel away at my sanity with their stupidity…However, when I have a chance to breathe and meditate on it, I simply find a life’s lesson in it, teach my children on the lesson if it’s one in there, (in almost everything you can show them everyday examples you learned in the Bible). But believe me, I have witnessed, seen and experienced some back stabbing, money conniving, want to see you fail episodes in my lifetime that can make the devil  do a double take and say, “What the hell?!!”   Be careful though, because Ephesians 6:12…IJS

Anyway, when you start looking at your real treasures in life, you won’t ever be broken or alone. How many close people in your life wants their life better than yours or have what you got? Don’t ask that question, when you aren’t ready for the answer. You really wouldn’t believe the conversations or thoughts that goes on behind closed doors about you.  An hour later they are texting or calling you as if what they never spoke ill of you. Stop thinking it’s not gossip! It is when “the main character” isn’t in the conversation! And why at this very moment, some of you thinking I am speaking about you? I AM!!  A conversation that I had with a wise person said to me, “It’s not about money that is in your bank account. I saw you complaining about life, ready to blow your top, asking questions on your next move and then you said “forget it, God’s got it.” The smile came back on your face and you went back to being your silly self, and on to your next destination to being BEBE and help someone else.”

“Honestly, not one person can steal this feeling or dim my smile because they have NO clue what it is or where it comes from.. AMAZING…When that Eureka moment arrives and your smile is genuine…PRICELESS…