It has always been a part of me to be easy-going, fulfilled, and eventually submissive when I got older. It took practically 30 years for me to realize that I didn’t know the person in the mirror.  From the outside I smiled and people saw a happy carefree and loving person. But the question I asked myself was who was I? So many years I have been everything for everyone else and that was a part of me just being me. That was not only my situation for all those years, but for many of you also. Today I can stand in the mirror and smile. With a considerable amount of gray in my hair, I am in a joyous relationship with the person in the mirror. She is kind, loving, forgiving, spontaneous, but mostly God-fearing. Although total transformation hasn’t taken place yet, the cocoon I am in I am changing what matters the most. MY THOUGHTS! Your thoughts can dictate what mood you are in, and you can SPEAK love, life and prosperity in your life!!

I can’t speak for anyone else but myself and I was truly one that relied highly on someone else telling me what I should do next, my worth, and I never felt the love that I gave out. No, I never wanted the material things, but pure love and friendship that I gave out. Unfortunately, the ones I thought would always be there for me, or the ones I held dearest to my heart, disappointed me in ways that would break the average person. I can remember the moment where someone walked out of my life, erased me from their memory as if I was not a part of their lives for so many years, and all I could think of was “do you know what I have done to make you happy?” At that moment, I was free. Remember, I am blessed yet cursed to be a forgiving person… so I felt my burdens lifted and although the pain remained with me for a while, I found a way to let them go. It takes one step at a time. When something you have been doing for years seems to become a way of life for you to let go and you decide you deserve better.

Today, I have been blessed abundantly with more than I can imagine. I have more PEACE, JOY, and BETTER UNDERSTANDING of who I AM! One thing you have to do in this day and time is continue to pray for those that hurt, misuse and abuse you. Pray for their souls! Pray that they prosper, that they go back to school, and that they are the best mothers or fathers to their children! I am still a believer that if you ever loved someone you never stopped loving them when you part ways, but you love them enough to let them go so YOU can grow!  Before I close I want to tell you one thing that I still see happening that can slow your process of growth. DON’T allow ANYONE to tell you your YESTERDAY is how you are TODAY! Every day we can change, no matter our history, we can CHANGE daily for the better of ourselves!

 “Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but expecting different results.” ~Albert Einstein