Listening to Mary J. and the song kind of reminds me of myself. Take me as I am..We say that is how others must see us in order to be in our lives, yet we constantly try to change to be what they need. Following the song lyrics, “yes she’s older now, wiser now,” I realize that I couldn’t make the ones I loved happy because they weren’t getting “ME.” They were getting a watered down version of whom I thought they wanted with a little dash of me. One person that I held strong within my heart told me as they saw my writing and me as “trying to be a goody goody, holier than thou person.” At first it stung, than I tried to clarify or bring justice to my work. Let’s be frank. When you are constantly trying to be what someone else needs, give them their wants and desires,make them happy, you will get stressed,depressed and lose sight of who you are, what you want and eventually get burned out because you NEVER get what you need from them. How is that? Simple, because you never stop and say, hey..I need something from you too. My writing allows me to explore what i want, desire, have experienced and its rarely what you call “goody goody, I’m better than thou.” My passion is love. In the pass, what I needed, I wrote about. Never expected that if I gave the ones I loved what they wanted, that I wouldn’t receive the same.

So now it’s the RAW me. Love me, or leave me. Take me as I am. As Mary J. said it, “I can only be me.” No one I know can be me, and not one of the people in your lives can be you. So why do we take our most precious selves and change the original package God made in order to make our “Sugar Cups, Boo’s or Soul mates” happy?  There will be many answers to this, and I am not looking for anyone to inbox me or write a response to this question. I do however want you to meditate on this, and free yourselves of other people’s descriptions of you. Personally, change is a hard and long journey me, but it is coming together as planned. No, not my plan, but Gods. Again, now the only acceptance I am looking for is with God. I’m not trying to be a goody, holier than others or anyone besides the perfect package made by God that requires unadulterated love and respect from those that are in my life now. There maybe a turning point as it was in my life, one that left me stranded in my feelings “Alone side a Road” (Read that blog to understand).Something that maked me say, “You have to love yourself more than this!” Pain, disappointment, disrespect and abandonment from others have not made me BITTER, but shown me how to be a BETTER me. The only choice I give now is to walk away or simply, TAKE ME AS  I AM!